Things have gotten a bit better, I’ll admit.. But, I still feel as negative, angry, depressed, but oddly enough some happiness has mixed in with it. School started, which is good, I’m out of the house and the new school has no bullies so far. I even made a couple friends on the first day. my laptop is fixed, too~! my baby is finally fixed and returned to me. -clings to her laptop- I now have two though. I still miss my dog though :/ It’s been hard without her… I miss entering the house and seeing her on the ground wagging her butt happily as she barks, I miss how loud she was, I come home to a quiet house now. When she was with me, and I entered the house I’d stick my leg out to keep her from running out (( even though she wouldn’t.)) and I still do it out of impulse, and when I realize I’m doing it I get sad. I want her back … I think I’m going to ask my mom and dad if she can come back to the house, I need her here, she was like my best friend, my baby, my little girl. she even has a small heart that’s blue and pink on her back, to symbolize that she belongs to me, (( course the dye was natural, so she wouldn’t be hurt by it.)) And I fgkhg just miss her. The situation with my girl- Ex girlfriend worsened, and I can’t stand the heart ache, plus not to mention I don’t talk much to my crush, :x I feel whore-rific for liking someone and also loving someone, it’s complicated, bleh.
but yeah, I’m kinda bleh…:c I want a hug.
